Haha, all day I've been waiting in anticipation to post another entry, but I wanted to pretend that I wasn't a big nerd who needs to get a life. So here we go, =).
While I had made it a point not to celebrate the new year because it is a fake holiday, I did make a resolution that I want to keep and make true of myself.
1. Be sincere and genuine in the things you say and do, in your relationships with your friends and family; be an honest person and value truth over convenience or a desire to please others.
A big part of me thinks that it's better to live life half-sincere, with semi-good intentions, so that I can avoid hurt, failure, and to cope with it all by not really meaning what I say in the first place. Right now, that philosophy doesn't fly so well with me. The fact that we change and have the ability to learn and grow is one of the most motivational inspirational truths for me. I'm grateful for that. And I'm coming to realize that if I am to do all the things that I plan to do, certain things need to change. If I say that I am going to do something, then I will do it; if I don't mean it, then I won't pretend to myself or others about it. Writing about this makes it feel like such a big goal that it can't be accomplished. Luckily, it is not something that I plan to do on my own.
As for how this will actually happen, I'm not quite sure. Today was difficult for me having to sit through a sermon about faith through action and then going to Sunday school to assess my spirituality (I get antsy sitting through a lot of preaching/Bible talk; I'm not very enthusiastic about church). Also, my natural reticence in social settings usually inhibits my ability to connect with others sincerely which will be another challenge. Living out the resolution is a lot harder than making it, probably why most resolutions are over before they start. But, I think I'll have to take the risk.
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