Oh, so many good things are named Jo Jo

1. my brother
2. my banjo
3. that 16 year old that sings 'too little too late'

I have been really busy lately. I'm sad that I haven't had as much for this as I had originally planned. But, I suppose I can't change anything anyway. I've been completely washed away by my classes. I am continually asking myself why I thought it was a good idea to take a semester like this, in the middle of my MCAT stuff. Omog. MCAT. I haven't even thought about it in over a week. I am struggling with a massive bout of apathy. I really don't care about anything right now. I have never felt this way about school. Or at least not to this extent. Please help me. Make me care? Maybe don't scare me with bad grades. Real motivation or a desire to do my best in everything that I do.

So, hm, what am I doing with my life? I'm pretty much at a standstill. I don't know what's going on. I don't know where you fit in God. I feel like you don't live inside me like I believed. Is it what I'm doing? I'm not praying or reading the bible? Oh man. I'm such a retard anyway. You're with me. You have to be or I'd just be nothing right now. So how do I make it real? How do you be real in my life?

There's a boy that I sort of like. It's a little exciting. I hope he likes me back. Heh.